enough

Do you ever allow yourself to think that maybe you are doing enough?

When was the last time you felt proud of yourself instead of thinking you should have worked a little harder?

Speaking for myself, I don’t think I’ve ever thought that I was doing enough. I’m always thinking of ways I could be doing better. Doing better in work, in life, in relationships, and with myself. Constantly beating myself up for not being 100% perfect.

I find this vicious cycle of self-doubt to immediately start to kick in once I begin scrolling through social media. It seems to do this to most people. 

It’s easy to feel like you're not doing enough when you’re constantly scrolling through thousands of highlight reels. It’s even easier to convince yourself that you’re not enough when you're consistently filling your head with “how-tos” and “easy ways” to look like the people you see online. The cycle feeds off insecurity and loves to repeat itself. I’d be lying if I said I wasn't a victim of this little game. 

Losing your own identity becomes easy when you’re constantly searching for approval from the world. 

Lately, I’ve been seeing everyone graduate college and I’m reminded about how far away from that I actually am. I see my friends getting into relationships and I beat myself up because I still have yet to experience what they have. I notice someone else doing well, so I just automatically assume my own personal success is meaningless.

I let comparison consume me.

I begin to lose focus on the things I’m doing right because I’m so caught up in the things I’m doing wrong. 

I get so stuck looking for the negatives, that the positives don’t even register anymore. 

The other night I was sitting, asking the Lord for direction and guidance on what to do next in my life. I was feeling stuck. Doubting where I was and what I was doing. I felt like I wasn’t doing enough. In the midst of my dramatic breakdown, I felt Him say, 

What if you're already doing enough?

A simple question that calmed my mini storm. It got me thinking and you know, He might be right. He usually is.

So listen as I tell this to myself too,

You are enough 

You are doing enough

You are in the right place

I’m so glad you’re here.

And I’m so glad you're YOU.

For a minute can we just stop being cookie-cutter versions of each other? Can we stop looking around - waiting for someone to tell us who to be or what to do?

I’m speaking to myself when I say this but let’s just stop seeking temporary approval and start looking toward the One who loves us endlessly exactly as we are.

Let the chase be over. 

Come as you are.

Unveil the mask.

Tell yourself what you're doing is enough. 

Let the Lord bring you the rest and love you deserve.

Sit and think for just a minute, what if I am doing enough? What if I don’t need to be in a constant battle with myself?

Let yourself be proud for once. 

Let go of the comparison and start focusing on the things you have going for you right now - no matter how small.

Feel grateful that you’ve made it this far.

You’re working so hard. You’re trying your best. Recognize that.

You’re doing enough. You are enough.